The other day I found myself blinking away tears because I was hurt. I could not see why I worry so much and care for something so much. I try and push myself so hard to make it good for the other person, only to find out that that person did not try on his/her end. That is when I break down un-wantedly. I then scold myself to tears because I was the foolish one or the only one worrying about things for no reason.
Sometimes I don't know why I can't just sit back and watch life roll by, just like everyone else. And when I feel like I am THE only one helping someone, I question myself if this is all worth it.. Am I giving myself more stress for things that will not result in anything.. will I be forgotten or even be taken for granted? Then in all quietness and calmness that follows my thoughts, I hear the answers to my confused mind. I remember why I do what I do. What is all this unnecessary stress for? I realize that it is for the kindness of those who bestowed me when I was not expecting it. And when I am in the position of being ABLE to, I had told myself that I will do my part as a thank-you to those kind people who came my way when I needed it.
And then to reassure my heart, my eye drifts onto the magnet quote by John F. Kennedy:
"One person can make a difference, and everyone should try."
I realize that even if others can't understand or appreciate why I do the things I do, it doesn't matter, as long as I see THIS difference and I see it bright and clear in the smiles of those I help.
Sometimes I don't know why I can't just sit back and watch life roll by, just like everyone else. And when I feel like I am THE only one helping someone, I question myself if this is all worth it.. Am I giving myself more stress for things that will not result in anything.. will I be forgotten or even be taken for granted? Then in all quietness and calmness that follows my thoughts, I hear the answers to my confused mind. I remember why I do what I do. What is all this unnecessary stress for? I realize that it is for the kindness of those who bestowed me when I was not expecting it. And when I am in the position of being ABLE to, I had told myself that I will do my part as a thank-you to those kind people who came my way when I needed it.
And then to reassure my heart, my eye drifts onto the magnet quote by John F. Kennedy:
"One person can make a difference, and everyone should try."
I realize that even if others can't understand or appreciate why I do the things I do, it doesn't matter, as long as I see THIS difference and I see it bright and clear in the smiles of those I help.
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