Friday, December 28, 2012

Beyond forbidden walls.

Little incidents that have recently come my way unexpectedly has led me to be bold again; teaching me to believe in the journey and not the destination. Mainly opening my eyes to love in the different individuals through un-anticipated events. It has made me a little girl who once wanted to believe in fairy tales. Somehow I feel confident of who I am and what I want to do, I feel a greater appreciation from those who come my way. I was set to confine myself to what was already written in the stars and pursue happiness in that manner. However, trudging beyond these forbidden walls and risking being broken on my way and finding happiness in the journey no matter the destiny, seems to be my greater call.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

A thousand pounds

'A thousand pounds on my chest' moments are what have brought us nearer and stronger in our friendship than ever. When your close friend tells you about her 'thousand pounds on my chest' moment, your heart pounds. Especially when you are so far away from your loved ones who would come to your rescue and wipe your tears away immediately. You wish you could make that move. Maybe that is why we promised to never live too far away from each other. I remember telling her that, many times we will go through the 'thousand pounds on my chest' moments in our life but there is nothing we can do to stop them. And when I feel the 'thousand pounds on my chest', I reach out to the one who told me about it first. I have found few individuals who can take away the thousand pounds by just being there for you. And I pray that I never lose them and that they get stronger than those thousand pounds whenever it hits them. 

A day with you.

And a day with you was all I wanted.




The words of a Stranger.

Many times, a Stranger has a 'disconnected' connotation to it. We don't immediately associate it with something near and dear. I realize, growing up, how the importance of a Stranger in your life can be. Sometimes, circumstances can teach you to mature in austerity due to friendships and family relationships gone ugly. But what is there to judge such people who do not want anything more with Strangers?

I was in Nepal for a month holiday to be with my family. Everyday was an event on its own whether we did something or not. Once, I was slowly recovering from a sickness and was not feeling great about myself. I had a reunion with my childhood friends that day and I had to go to a huge convenient store in the capital for a quick purchase. This young lady (early twenties) who was neatly attired worked to welcome customers and to ensure smooth flow of traffic in the different doorways of the big departmental store. I was late so was in a rush to go in but figured that I should ask her if I can take my plastic bag in. She looked and realized it was a pretty big bag which she was not sure if she should let me and told me politely that she will keep it with her at the doorway till I am done shopping. I quickly agreed to it. When I was done, I went to get my bag and we both smiled in unison. Then in quick hesitation, she told me that I had a 'sweet talk'. I was confused as to what she meant, and she explained that when I left my bag with her, the way I agreed in simple words had a sweet ring to the ear. Nobody told me something like that after just a minute of encounter so it was very unexpected and I did not know what to say so I just gave her a bigger smile and thanked her. I thought how she and I probably would have made good friends. Someone who had to deal with crowds, and someone who was not afraid to pass a compliment to one of the many people she sees everyday. I don't know why but at that moment, those little words from her lifted my mood and made me happy to be Me. It made me breathe the air around me better, and as I traveled to meet my friends, it made me forget and enjoy the moment of being part of the livelihood with strangers.

Similarly, I went running early yesterday morning. I came across this larger man in his 40s who kept looking at me and smiling as if we knew each other. Then it hit me not long afterwards that he was the same man who had complimented/encouraged me last winter that my running had improved so much and to keep up with my running. And again, yesterday, he smiled and told me that I am doing very well running. It quickly brought back my thoughts on Strangers and the power of their kind words. I don't know who that man is but he sure could be an angel for those going through hard times. Similarly, it really made me happy that someone recognized the fact that I always push myself to get out of bed so that I can be strong - mentally, emotionally and physically.

So today, I wanted to say that you may be a random person on the road for someone, but your kind words can mean the world to him/her. Stop and smile and if you really find something sweet, motivating or exceptional, do not be afraid to let that person know. Acknowledging little 'beauty' can create beautiful individuals.Obviously, this goes to closer ones in your life, like an old friend or distant family members. Reaching out to someone you believe in, could make a big difference in their life.