It is hard to go around your normal routine when there is no sight of the future, where or how things will pan out. Being at a crossroad is a process that many go through in life and perhaps, several crossroads in one's life journey. I can imagine that under those occasional grey stormy clouds, the uncontainable forces of nature are telling us something. I can sense the need to stay under cover, stay protected and mainly the need to know the people you love are safe. There are societal pressure to achieve or rather be an over-achiever because that represents success if not you are being foolish and will suffer later. Following and pleasing the minds of those who perceive life to be a certain way, can be hard to ignore. Several questions of your capabilities come not just from others but from self. I can only imagine that those unforeseen lightning storms mean to struck you as it intends to. To appreciate what you have and enjoy being in the moment despite the harshness of your fortune and societal disapprovals.
